PAIN and PILL

Bittersweet

Phnom Penh: It is bitter, hard but cool. What is it? Have you ever had this kind of feeling? Some people may find this feeling differently. For instance, drinking alcohol or the strong tea. 

Possible! It sounds logical. Meanwhile, I might not be completely separated from the others; though everyone is unique. 

To me, to have this such of feeling is quite easy. By just only having a cup of cappuccino, I can create both strong and soft feeling at a time.

The strength are: it is hot because I don’t really like ice. It is bitter as I prefer not to have sugar. Importantly, it is hard and hurt since I have a bad stomach ache. Thus, anytime I drink coffee, I got pain in my stomach. Sometimes, my body and hands are trembling; plus, I get more saliva. I often feel vomit after drinking. Of course, it is sensation. So what?

Peaceful Silent

I am crazy? No, not really! It is actually physical hurt but I enjoy drinking coffee. Why, right? Because it is cool, soft and relax.

At the meantime, I say I am not a very critical observer but obviously I am. I am more likely to take thing into account and discuss personally. Maybe I am an easy effected person. I am serious and sensitive of course.

And that is the reason why I go out and drink a cup of hot cappuccino. In Cambodia, you might spend less than 0.50 USD to have a cup of coffee but I choose to spend at least 2 USD to pay for my cup. It is not about the money but it is the way satisfy life.

My mom sometimes complaints that to me “you are spending on what you should not.”  Man! It is not a fool but it brings me the sense of peace and happiness. 

I was not a coffee addicted before 2010. However, after that time past, I had my first experience in Europe (Sweden). I was already affected or influenced from the way of their living. Drinking hot coffee without sugar takes along me the Swedish feeling which I always missed and appreciated.

I am not alone

So, when I drink bitter coffee, I feel more enjoyable and cheer. I choose to get pain at the end of the day because I already got the mental pill and delighted memory while having coffee.  

This is called trend-off. People can’t get two awesome things at a time.